Is this fair on me at all?

I believe that you feel very neglected by your parents but that is no reason to act the way you have.The running away and drinking and cursing is not going to help the situation any it will only make things worse for you and your family. You need to find something that you like to do and focus on that and try to be a better person than the people around you. No matter how bad your life is you determine what and who you become not anyone else so don't follow your peers make good choices on your owe and become your own person.